a resolution

long to be anonymous
lurking in shadows
unnoticed and naked
no title attached
alone, standing quiet
silent sentinel to life
a moment untainted

only a moment

no angle or viewpoint
surrounded by activity
sans desire and intent
baptized by awareness
sanctuary of solitude
replenishing to soul
learn to treasure all

Nephew Update

***UPDATE*** Connor is home after passing all neurological testing with flying colors! The first round of testing on the tumor shows it to be benign and MRI showed it to be completely removed. THANK YOU ALL for your prayers and support. I am so blessed. Have a wonderful and safe New Year’s celebration. ******

For those of you that are checking in… my nephew is now in ICU after 8 hours of surgery. I’m hoping for more of an update once he wakes up but feel relieved that this part of the journey is complete. Thank you for your continued support and prayers.

Christmas Quiet

awoke at dream’s flight
something on my mind
perhaps, more correctly
something on my heart
a prophet, a man, God 
depicted in every color
so that all can relate
random date assigned 
birth time celebration
it is not about one day 
hope birthed anew
annual renewal reminds
ours is not to act as God 
we only extend invitation
the divine into humanity
Saviour in the recognition
of splendid common ground
awakening once more to belief

Portrait

do bring your kindest perceptions
when you paint your picture of me
a tired and thoroughly worn vessel
i’m daily fighting to set myself free

it might be that i disappoint some
perhaps i travel an unknown road
worries, fears always in reach here
that type of burden’s a heavy load

this mind wanders into minefields
when left without balance of heart
forgetting the gift is already given
letting doubts try to tear it apart

each morning i step into sunlight
chance is a choice that i’ve made
thankful for beauty surrounding
know debt is with gratitude paid

in anticipation i peek at canvas
find things you think to be true
amazed at all that you capture
the picture of me could be you

Edge of the World

sitting on the edge of the world
watching winds capture curtain
i began trying clouds on for size
blowing by as borrowed distress
some looking as wild horses alit
dragging me with the stampede
to high clouds of icy desperation

on clear days forever bloomed
with hope of eternal existence
encircled by a nimbus of faith
cradled in arms of belief until 
again a mustang would charge
leaving me to teeter and sway

i no longer pilfer heaven’s robe
gales blast then blow across me
no struggle has been harnessed
with repeating choice to remain
sitting on the edge of the world

Doppelganger Hunt

i have lost my twin
we were separated
before birth, actually
before conception
i think it happened
when the great artist
mixed colors
spread us thin
across life’s canvas
i know i am not alone
many search for
lost connection
trying to complete
the other half
when, sometimes
they don’t feel whole
we scan heavens
hike across hills
scrutinize creek beds
as water reflects
a million faces
exploring daydreams
nights moon struck
by the challenge
still, i am alone
now wondering
is it shadow i seek

Whisper Request

speak of foods that melt in mouth
dreams that land softly on pillows
laughter recalled in darkest night
kisses imprinted on each reunion
fill me up with fragrant serenades
let joyful memories be my bounty
calling me home from masquerade
let cloaks of sadness be checked
fill no hearts with longing regrets
curse only the act to seek a divide
weep losses while knitting them in
nightmares lasting only an instance
whisper me a future of gratitude

Christmas Window

some storefront windows
have elegant displays
meant to entice you
place a tag on happiness

other scenes exist
their goal is comfort
for laughter to gather
to be warmed by the fire
fed by homemade meals
recipes for contentment
handed down the ages
remembered as unwrapping
each forgotten ornament

Birthing Poets

life is birthing poets
from uncanny places
carts with broken wheels
birds without a melody
dolls with teased hair
and missing clothes
paper castles set on fire
but with each word
they tighten a bolt
discover a new song
and comb things out
putting patches to holes
setting mortar to brick
to home and hearth
life is birthing poets

Gone Awry

I had some good intentions but they have gone awry… For those that don’t know, I’m working on consolidating my blog and my website. Unfortunately, this is going much slower than originally intended. I had been waiting to acknowledge some awards until my grand unveiling but given delays that will no longer do! So, here we go….

A while back I was over at the lovely Luisa Doraz blog, Believe In Yourself , and she was having a wonderful contest about guessing what anniversary she was celebrating. Era, over at Today’s Thought, and yours truly guessed correctly that it was her silver anniversary. We were both awarded the beautiful flowers seen below. I have to admit that I feel like I cheated. I recognized her wedding dress as being very similar to my own. Congratulations again on 25 years of marriage Luisa, I know it comes from lots of love and hard work!

The next award I would like to acknowledge is the Best Blog Award. I actually have had the priviledge to be given this award by two of my wonderful blogging friends, Luisa Doraz at Believe In Yourself and Tasneem Rangoonwala at Laugh Hard! In a time when life is a little stressful and uncertain, they both have brought the gift of laughter back into my life. I can’t thank them both enough for not only the award but the mission they are on to remind all of us to enjoy each day. What greater gift could there be? Please visit them for your own health and happiness!

As luck would have it, each of these awards allows me to pass along the honor to 15 of my other blogging friends. Of course the award immediately reflects back to the gifters but now everyone else on my blogroll can also enjoy and send the love along! This is for all of you!

Beyond My Window for heartfelt words that always ring true (be sure to check her other links)

Bliss Bait for incredible art and rainbow views on the world

Brainstew - Impressions Personafied for The Poetry Corner and connecting to others through poetry

Calliope’s Pen for depth of her words and ability with an incredible variety of forms – great humor and friendship too

Courting Disaster for her own incredible poetry and the lovely finds of other poets and musicians

DarcKnyt for his wit, humor, and his ability to make us take fear head on (check his other links)

Dying Man’s Daily Journal because he inspires me to live

Sheeluvlee for the raw emotion she is willing to share – you are a brave woman of strength

J. Ruth Kelly for philosophy and insight…and feeling like home

Jamie Spencer for edgy insights and love of the open road

Jpenstroke’s Blog because memoirs never felt so personal before I found you

L. K. Thayer’s Poetry Juice Bar will squeeze you and then line up other tremendous wordsmiths and artists to do the same

Outlandos d’Amour because it will make him crazy to have to tell me he won’t post the award and his writing makes me melt

Paul Wylie’s Blog for his wonderful observations shared through poetry

Poetical Ness for unearthing the poet within…we are blessed

Purple’s Platitudes for sharing your words, your thoughts, and your heart with us and for taking on complex forms and approaches

Randall Dean Scott for choosing poetry as your lifeline and reminding us that we can too

Sam I Am (not) for sharing her thoughts on love and relationships – what an open heart

Shadowplay for holding our hand while we venture down a path of light and darkness – I love the thoughts you spark

Signposts On The Way for wonderful digital art, thoughtful reminders on how to live, and posts of his philosophies on life

Soul Dose for her strength, her honesty, and letting us join in her journey – the humor too

Summer Rain for her posts on love – love of her child, her self, and others – heart warming

The “Ness” in Darcness  first for the fun look at marriage and family life, a love of kittehs, and overall fun posts (check her other links too)

The Dark Lord’s Blog has some poetry you don’t want to miss – somehow it never reminds me of the dark

The Self Love Project is always a busy place – posts from special causes, to poetry, to personal journal, to the next great surprise

This Human’s Condition is another place I visit for humor and a observations on pop culture

Today’s Thought is a journal blog with observations, recommendations, insights and fun

Utopian Fragments incredible poetry to broaden my views and make me think

Whispers of Conciousness a poet, artist, and photographer giving us a glimpse

Whizbangwoman has poetry, personal journal, even book and movie recommendations for all

All of you deserve so much more than just this award. Your willingness to put yourselves out into the public arena and share of your self is a daily inspiration. Know that I am always eager to read your words and have incredible respect for each of you. Blessings to you this holiday season and always ~ Jaymie